When you see someone from your past, what goes through your head?
For me the first thought are usually “Is that someone I know? What is their name?”. After that my ego usually takes over. I start to wonder if they would remember me, should I say hi, would they be glad to see me, how do I look, what would I tell them, etc. It is ironic that when I see someone I haven’t seen in a long time I usually start thinking about myself.
I never really realized this about myself until tonight. Tonight was different.
I saw someone I used to know. Someone I used to be really good friends with. My thought process was totally different tonight. I did not go over and say hi (though I am pretty sure I know it was them and I know their name). Now I have all kinds of lingering questions.
Do she still have the same passion for their interests that she used to have?
Does she still love art?
How have the years changed her?
Did I treat her kind enough?
It is like the ghost of Christmas past. Though I am not sure I would want to go back in time and see with the clarity of age.
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My first reaction: RUN! My second reaction is to make sure it’s not a probation officer. My third reaction is to throw anything in my pockets in the surrounding bushes or “shrubs” as some people call them.
I’m hugely nostalgic, so I instantly remember the good times we had, and go into what-if mode.
As in….
What if we had remained friends?
What if we had turned into more than friends?
What if they are single now?
Do we still have things in common?
I must say, I enjoy running across my ghosts of Christmas Past. Maybe its because most of my most treasured friendships have been the people who I formed relationships in my earlier years. I think that has a lot to do with our lives as adults not having enough time to build more than casual friends.
Well, Christian. That explains your behavior the last time I saw you…
LOL, my sister knows Christian. This is a small town.